So this is my story: I go out to Nantucket to work as a Younglife Leader. It's fun being on my own and also helping the do the work of the Lord. But as always trials and temptations come. Sometimes we have a choice to make on whether to follow through on temptation. I chose wrong.
About the third week in June I met a girl who was pretty cool. We liked the same music. We liked the same fashion, and just seemed to connect in everyway. But she was lacking in the God department. Yes she knew of God and Jesus, but whether she was willing to pursue him with all her heart well I know that answer now. It was resounding no.
We continued to get to know each other, and it was becoming a distraction to my most important relationship. I started putting the focus on her and not the responsiblities that I had come to perform on Nantucket. Then I got mad and angry when I was corrected. "Who were they to correct me?" I was perfectly happy.
Then about the end of July we moved in with each other. For a month we lived in the same room and slept in the same bed. And God began to tug on my heart. I didn't listen for the longest time. Not until I started getting sick and getting headaches on a regular basis.
One night I was just laying in the bed sick to my stomach and my head pounding with a head ache and the Lord came and spoke to me.
"Daniel", he said, "This isn't where I want you. This isn't how your supposed to be living." A week and half later I was off island with all my stuff.
It still wasn't easy. I have a problem forgiving myself. Yet it's so essential for me to continue living having forgiven myself.
This past Monday I did just that. I feel like a new man. I feel exited again. I feel like God has gotten a hold on me and my life in a big way. I'm determined to give my life 100% over to him holding nothing back. I'm learning and I'm ready to make mistakes. God help me!!
